Oh, baby.

So there's been no real update for a month because I haven't been to the cities for awhile due to some major miscommunication and annoyances with them! I could go on for hours, but to make this story short, I had an ECG and Level 2 ultrasound done with them yesterday with one of the docs that I don't like, and it ended about as I expected. The cardiologist seemed happy with the heart, she said the imaging wasn't great but that the ticker hole seemed better and they would just be doing an echo at birth to determine if it needs treatment or not, so that was good. Then I had my ultrasound, baby is still only around 2.5 lbs which is still pretty teeny for this stage so the lovely lady made me get the steroid shots to advance the lungs. She is having me do twice weekly ultrasounds and non-stress tests and we will see where we end up! At this point, he's not growing as well as he should be and might be slowing down, and I have about twice as much fluid as I should which equals some pretty constant pain for me. I now have pregnancy-induced hypertension and some lovely cankles going on, so I'm thinking this pregnancy isn't going to last too much longer.
I'm having a hard time with this process now, I've never been in a position where I don't know what's best for me or even for the baby, and I don't trust the people that are supposed to be making those decisions. I'm pretty angry and stressed and unsure right now, so I know this isn't very informative. If you have any questions, please feel free to ask me. Hopefully the weekend will bring some clarity. One can only hope!